sometimes it confuses my self

how do i explain about it,,,,
yes i don't know it myself,,,  yet,,,

maybe the big picture is sometimes that kind of thing, this kind of thing, these kind of thing and those kind of thing,, could change people heart both of them, made the heart weaker or stronger,,,

when all of the thing make the heart weaker,, i hope you could find someone that could lean you a shoulder, to give you spirit,, but if you dont find that someone,, just try your hardest,, to be tough

and when all of them make your heart stronger,,, are you sure,, your heart is that strong,,, when you don't have anybody to lean on,,, or you just make that unpenetrated barrier to protect your fucking weak side,,,,

and here comes the question,,,,
are those word really explain my feeling ???????,,,,,,,
ha,,,